Emotions

                  Today was a good day at work. No one was rude to me, no one stabbed me in the back, and I did not get in trouble. I stayed to myself and left people alone. So why am I depressed? Why is there a need for human contact? People tell me all the time to not care what people think. Is that even possible?
             I get offended when people walk by me and don't even acknowledge me. And yet, I am too afraid to acknowledge them. I don't want to bother anyone. What can I do about this?
           I also feel like I am an annoyance to society. I like to joke and see their response to my jokes. My day gets ruined if they didn't respond the way I wanted them to. I feel they get annoyed and say, "whatever Jesse."   And then they probably think, "geeze I wish he would go away." I hate feeling like this. So I leave people alone so I don't bother them. But that also causes depression. Because people stop talking to me and there is that need for human contact.
             Even though I tried to not care what people think, there is that need for human contact.